It has been a while since I wrote on here. My life has moved forward in many ways which is positive because anytime you move forward it is amazing. BUT, during this time I found myself overwhelmed and sometimes if I am being honest very fearful. Even though I knew my calling and that I had heard from God I still found myself falling back into the motion of doing it on my own. Every time I found myself falling into that I would see my momentum come to a screeching halt.
You see I am one of those people that will work unending hours to prove I can do something and then watch every other part of my life fall apart around me while I am proving myself. I had seen this happen so many times before. You would think working more would rectify the problem but nope my work load just seemed to grow and grow and grow. I guess the problem is I had asked God to take the wheel of my vehicle (life). When we started this journey He was driving and things were going smoothly. Then as soon as I thought the process wasn’t moving fast enough I took the wheel back from God. Now we are lost, I got a speeding ticket and we are almost out of Gas.
What do I do? I call for HELP!!!! I am so thankful that I have a God that will come get me when I am in the middle of nowhere with a flat tire and empty tank of gas in the middle of a snowstorm When he shows up again he doesn’t say Renee’ I told you this would happen. Or What were you thinking trying to drive yourself. He says how about you me put this can of gas in your tank, fix your flat tire and If you want I can drive you home during the storm so you can relax.
As I sit here with tears in my eyes thankful for everything he has done for me and all that he is in my life I remember the verse in God’s word that says this:
I will lead the blind by ways they have not known,
along unfamiliar paths I will guide them;
I will turn the darkness into light before them
and make the rough places smooth.
These are the things I will do;
I will not forsake them. Isaiah 42:16
He will always lead and guide me. He will never leave me alone. He will help me when I call on him. I just need to cry out for help.
If you are struggling today because you have taken the wheel back from God. Cry out HELP!!!….he is just a call away.
BE BLESSED ON YOUR JOURNEY